The Axiomatic Musings of a Teen who needs an escape.

We all do, really.

Terribly sorry it's been a while since a post. School just started and with AP US history I don't have much free time. Sophomore year so far is going...well I can't say good, missing Sal is driving me insane and my 6 year old dog was put down today for cancer, but the actual classes part is actually pretty decent. I like most of my teachers, and my schedule is convenient.

But regardless, shit happens and we all need ways to cope with it. I've recently discovered I can do that through songwriting. Since Sal and I broke up, I'd thought about writing a couple songs, but never really finished because they just didn't feel that right to me. The other day though, after struggling trying to put something together that rhymed well and had a good beat, I just stopped. And I took one of my favorite dismal chord progressions (Em, Cadd9, G, D, Em for anyone who's interested) and I just started singing out how i felt. Then it all just came together. I ended up finishing it yesterday, and I really really like the song. It's a little difficult to play without crying, but it really helps make the emotions more tolerable.

So what I'm saying here is that sometimes, when everything just seems so confusing, is to just take a minute and be honest with your feelings. Then do something with them. Write a poem, a song, a concerto, a journal entry, anything that can help you just kind of get the feelings out and define them. Once they're a little more definite and pinned down, you can start dealing with them a little better and they're a little less intimidating. Everyone is entitled to a sappy love song or depressing poem once in a while. Doesn't matter if no one else reads it but you. You deserve an escape from the world sometimes.

Let your creativity and emotions flow at the same time, and you'll always end up with something amazing.

♪: "Real World" by Matchbox 20
♫: "You Belong With Me" by Taylor Swift
♪♫: "Not Titled Yet" by Moi :)