The Axiomatic Musings of a Teen who calls for a group hug.

I FLIPPING LOVE MY FRIENDS <3.

I thought I barely had them. I thought I barely needed them. I thought they were catty, or could care less, or untrustworthy, or just things I didn't need to be bothered with.

Admittedly I was wrong.

Since the thing with Ash, I've been getting hugs every time I turn around. Aimey has been respectful about asking questions but still shows her concern and is a good and trustworthy listener, same with Zee. I spent last night with Rei, Ginny, Devon, and others last night at the football game. My friend since elementary school that I drifted from for a while, Thalia, who conveniently lives about 2 minutes away, suggested a girls-day Disney movie marathon that we're doing this afternoon, and I'm going to another friend's party tonight with people like Cissa, that crowd. And I got a comforting inbox from an old friend today that really meant a lot to me.

And it's just like...whoa. People other than a boyfriend can and do care about me. It's such a wonderful feeling. I forgot how important it was to have friends like this. Even if/when Ash and I become official again I want to be sure to not forget these guys and make sure I stay in contact more. And I did say if/when, things are going pretty well so far with us on that track :). So thank you for the luck you wished after the last post ;).

So if any of you guys that have been there for me without even being asked these past couple days are reading this...just thanks. *Group huggg!!!*

♪: "You've Got A Friend In Me" from...okay, if you don't know what this is from...no, everyone knows where this is from, nevermind xD.
♫: "Keep Holding On" by Avril Lavigne

The Axiomatic Musings of a Teen whose business is not yours.

Yeah, Ash and I are taking a break because things are complicated.

But why? Was it Regina? Or Cady or the other girls? Did he cheat? Did you cheat? Did you have a big fight? Are you getting back together? Are you never speaking again? Whose fault was it?


Um, I have a question for you. Does it matter to you? Will the answers to those questions greatly affect your life personally? No?

Then mind your own goddamn business and let us mind ours.

Our generation is so accustomed to Facebook and Twitter informing us about every moment someone takes a breath, drinks a soda, hangs out with someone new. We know every detail about our peers with a few clicks of a button. And we're all okay with this?

I'm not.

I don't need your interrogations. I don't need your comments. I don't need your advice. For once I'm actually doing fine without venting to everyone in a 5 mile radius, desperate for pity.

Special thanks to Zee for agreeing with me on this :).

Just...just wish me luck, guys, that's all you gotta do. Don't be blaming anyone, don't be hating anyone, just wish us luck.

♪: "Story of Us" by Taylor Swift
♫: ....I don't even know.

The Axiomatic Musings of a Teen WHO'S REALLY EXCITED!

ASH IS COMING BACK TO SCHOOL FOR REALSIES TOMORROW!!!
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
:D


♪: "I'm So Excited" by The Pointer Sisters.

The Axiomatic Musings of a Teen with a license to push underclassmen the hell outta my way.

So I got my learner's permit last week, it was pretty sweet. Not as sweet as my other friends that already have their licenses and are laughing at this, but still :P. But anyway to do so, we all had to read the whole DMV manual and learn all about rules of the road and whatnot. And I couldn't help but notice that driving on the road has an analogy very near and dear to every teen's heart...

Hallways. 

We travel in them, we merge in them, we can't avoid them. So for the same reason there is a manual for driving on roads, there ought to be a set of guidelines for courteous travel and safety! These guidelines in my opinion are as follows, but please feel free to add your own in the comments :). 

Speed Limits:

-Because there are no posted speed limits, use your best judgement and follow the flow of traffic. Just because you have plenty of time to walk from one end of a hallway to another, does not mean the person behind you is in the same situation. Hallways are not the place to get your swag on, homey, just speed up, look alert, and be aware of the crazy band-to-math kids running up from behind you. Students in a rush reserve the right to push mosey-ers out of the way. 

Stopping:

Would you ever just brake in the middle of the road because you saw a pretty flower on the curb? No. Likewise, you should not just suddenly stop in the middle of a hall because your friend is at their locker. If you need to stop, you are to pull over to the side of the hallway as easily as you can without cutting anyone off too much. When stopping to go to your locker, do not pause in the middle of the hallway and wait for the opposing crowd to stop. Push through as best you can, or even do a U-Turn so it's easier to get to your locker. But for goodness' sake don't just stand there! Now that you have been suitably warned, any moving student has every right to push a non-moving student if they are blocking the hallway. Says me. 

Right of Way:

At an intersection, it is every teen for themselves. Those intending to remain straight are better off keeping to the right. But those crossing to turn into a different hallway have a harder time and must push through for themselves. However the following cases should be generally observed as right of way:

-They're bigger. Chances are they wouldn't stop to let you cut in front of them anyway.

-They're seniors. Just don't. 

-They're a couple. If you've had a boyfriend/girlfriend that you hold hands with in the hallway, you know it's just rude and inconvenient when someone tries to barrel through between you. This ain't no game of Red Rover, folks. 

-They're a teacher or administrator. Duh. Hall Monitors don't count though, hallways are their job.

Aside from those exceptions, it is best to just push through as much as you can. You've all played Frogger as kids, I'm sure...it's like that. But once again, DO NOT STOP! This only makes it harder!

Random Maneuvers/Exceptions: 

-U-Turns: Acceptable if they can be pulled off without stopping or crashing into someone. Much harder to maneuver as a couple but possible. 

-Locked Classroom Door: Often the lazier teachers won't return back from lunch right on time. This often creates a large mass of students huddling by the door. This is not their fault, so avoid them as best you can. Students in this situation would be wise to stick to the wall as best they can. 

-Lockers on Both Sides: Exercise caution.

Passing Safely:

Sometimes you're in a rush and the moron in front of you might as well be oozing down the hallway. Attempt to pass on the right or left. If there is a line of oozers (generally Freshmen), you have the right to push them aside a little bit and use the center of the hallway to get around. 

Noises: 

-It is not necessary for you to shout, 'HEY, BITCH, WAIT FOR ME!' from one end of the hallway to the other. 

-Keep hallway conversations relatively safe. Discussing top-secret gossip is not wise when you're packed with kids listening to you from either side. 

Electronics:

-Cell Phones: Need to shoot a quick text? No problemo, as long as your peripheral vision is functioning properly. If you're so engrossed in the conversation that you bump into people/lockers/doors/Mr Pic, it's time to stop. 

-iPods: I generally avoid using them in hallways so that a) I can hear people if they're calling me and b) they do announcements sometimes about people that have to go to guidance. So use discretion. 

Parking:

There's a reason double parking is illegal: IT SUCKS. So why would you stand in a clump that's 4 people wide out from your locker?! This is usually in the morning or dismissal and it's a pain in the ass. You really don't need all 6 of your friends to be in a huddle by your locker at 7:27am in a hallway with lockers on both sides. Find a nice alcove or less crowded hall to hang out in, like the cooking hallway or the science hallway, or the cafeteria. Also, if you are standing at someone's locker and the person who has the locker next to them tries to get past you, they have right of way and you should offer a short apology. 

So there you have it, basic rules of etiquette for hallway navigation. Again, if you have your own, please add them in the comments!

♪: "Push" by Matchbox 20

♫: "Looking Up" by Paramore

The Axiomatic Musings of a Teen who's depressed, stressed out, and sick...but it's okay! Everyone's doing it!

Firstly though;
SORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRY!!!! My week has been CRAZY. Monday I was just exhausted, Tuesday I got my Learner's Permit (I'll do a post on the DMV eventually), Wednesday I had One-Acts, Thursday I spent freaking out finishing a bunch of AP Lit assignments...gah. So much stress. BUT now it is the weekend and although I have a shit-load of homework still, I'm taking a break for at least this afternoon. Another little update; Ash is doing fine, he's hoping to start half-days at least back at school on Monday! I'm so excited, I've really missed him at school.

Which brings me to today's topic: Anxiety and stress. There's a lot of it going around.

I had a doctor's appointment on Tuesday to get a flu shot and while I was there, my mom mentioned how my appetite varies from normal to non-existent for weeks, and I vomit when I'm upset, which is frequent. She left the room and they asked me some questions and whatever and it appears I have anxiety, and they would strongly encourage me to start seeing a counselor. But don't worry; this is very common in someone your age.

It is? And you don't see anything wrong with this picture?!

Most of you reading this are probably procrastinating an essay or project. You probably have a low grade in a class because the teacher isn't very good or fair. You probably are involved in some sort of activity, sport, or job that takes up a lot of your time. You probably don't get more than 6/7 hours of sleep at night. Your parents are probably on your case about grades, or cleaning your room, or applying to colleges, or anything else they can think of. You probably have a boy or girl on your mind all the time, especially if things aren't going so well.You probably got into a fight or disagreement with someone this week that upset you.You probably can't remember the last time you "didn't have a care in the world".

But don't worry! That's very common.
...What?!

Parents, teachers, future, take the freaking hint! We're going insane!!!

None of us want this! We want to be able to sit at home with our friends and tell jokes and play Apples to Apples and watch Disney movies if we want and eat cookies without counting the calories and drink as much soda as we can and run around playing tag and climbing trees and sleeping in the sun. We're just kids...

But we do want to be perfect. You've taught us that to be perfect, we need the perfect job when we grow up, and a perfect family, and a perfect plan. But to do that, we need to get into the perfect college. So we need to get perfect grades, have a perfect attendance record, have a perfect mix of extra-curricular activities. But we also need to be accepted by our peers. So we need a perfect car, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect clothes and shoes, the perfect newest phone. A perfect reputation.
We want that.
I want that.
And I'll do anything for that, however sick it makes me. Because eventually I'll get what I want, and that will make me happy.

I could sit here and bitch about all the things that stress me out in my life. But then people would get upset at me for what I'm saying. And I don't want that; I want everyone to be happy. I want Ash to be happy, I want my parents to be happy, I want all of you to be happy! Because people like people who make them happy. So I won't go into all that. I'll just keep dealing however I can until it gets better or it kills me.

The first thing I'm working on is becoming more secure in myself. I need to not feel threatened or jealous and I need to just be sure of my own importance and value. Because sometimes I feel like I'm just one of many, or  even less than the many, and so I need to remind myself that I am special to myself. So I will do that.

And then I will think of clever blog posts to write again ;).

Have a good weekend, guys <3.

♪: "Innocent" by Taylor Swift (have you gotten this album yet? go get this album. it's amazing.)
♫: "Story of Us" by Taylor Swift (seriously. get the album.)