The Axiomatic Musings of a Teen Who is Thankful.

So yesterday was Thanksgiving.

Well, before I go into the whole thankfulness thing, I'll give you a quick update on stuff.

Ash:

Everything's fabulous, basically :). He is such a good boyfriend to me, really. It's so obvious he cares about me with everything he does, he shows concern for my happiness. And at the same time, I love doing stuff that makes HIM happy. What I like best is that he makes me feel special, for doing nothing at all. He dared me to wear sneakers one week instead of items from my 36-strong shoe collection. It was strange for me, I hadn't worn sneakers to school since I was teased for it in 8th grade. He told me I looked pretty every day though, then at the end of the week, he gave me this cute little plastic bracelet with a note saying that I didn't need fancy things to be pretty. That's the kind of guy he is :).

Friends:

Ugh, let's not go into this. The guys have pretty much all but isolated me, it's obvious now that I'm not with Sal they won't be nearly as welcoming. Whatever. Devon and I are still close, and I made a new-ish friend, we'll call her Chiki, in my Chem class and she's really sweet, a really good listener.

Family:

Daddy's home until after New Year's!! But Mommy is mean xP.

School:

Still holding my perfect 100 in French :D. My Chem teacher is psycho but other than that, stuff is good.

So anyway, NOW about Thanksgiving :).

I like Thanksgiving because, as my Lit teacher put it, it's a family holiday but there isn't any kind of delusion with anything like presents, it's just strictly family and food. Now I'm not the biggest fan of my family, but I do enjoy food :D. I stuffed myself last night (to the point I couldn't sleep) and it was really fun. Especially because I got rid of the fever I'd had since Tuesday. I find Thanksgiving is more of an internal holiday for me, simply because my family doesn't make it much of a deal. I take the time to reflect and really be grateful for what I have, because I know not everyone does. And I try not to list every single thing from my cellphone to my parents, so here are the big things I'm really, really thankful I have, and who helps me have them:

-My Sanity: Devon and Ash
-My Happiness: All of my friends
-My Love: Ash, of course!
-My Success: The decent teachers I have and friends that help me with homework
-My Health: The OJ that got rid of my fever
-My Family: Um, other relatives of my family, i guess xD
-My House: Mommy and Daddy!
-My Possessions: Mommy and Daddy and friends that get me gifts
-My Singing Ability: My totally awesome voice coach
-My Brain: Mommy mostly xD
-My Body: Genetics and Hula-Hoop!

-Ash, and the fact that he's happy and healthy

-Technology

-Education

-Food :)

So there you go. Amidst the face-stuffing yesterday I hope you at least thought about something you don't think you could live without. I know I have a few, and I'm so glad that they exist :).

NOW LET THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT BEGIN!! :D

The Axiomatic Musings of a Teen whose Starmie will kick your ass.

I was Misty for Halloween, Ash was...okay seriously, you should be able to guess that xD. He didn't get that codename for nothing!

It was a lot of fun. We made an adorable couple, got some cute pictures, and spent literally 21 of the last 48 hours together, and it still wasn't enough, we were on AIM until after midnight last night :).
We talked about what our favorite part of October was. Literally, I couldn't choose. So much was magical this month, just as expected :). But I'll tell you one thing that really made my Halloween:

Ash: What?
Me: You...you love me. And you're with me right now, because you care about my happiness, even more than your own.
Ash: *gorgeous smile* Well, yeah. I thought we established this.

It seems silly. But that time last year, I was at home, playing board games with Devon and my Mom, because I didn't want to go trick-or-treating, but Sal did so he and his friends--my friends--ditched me and went off without me. And I felt so alone that night, so unloved.

There's a difference between saying you love someone, and showing it. It's the difference between the trailer and the actual movie. Like, yeah, the trailer is usually pretty cool, but if there's nothing decent to back it up, then who cares? The movie can exist without the trailer, but not vice-versa. And last year, how could I believe I was loved? He did what he wanted to do without regard to my happiness, or my feelings. He could say he loved me all he wanted, but when push came to shove, I still wasn't more important than what he wanted. Contrarily, I can think about Ash holding my hand at the football game, or racing me to the car so he could open my door for me every time, or bringing me roses...and he didn't have to say 'i love you' any of those times, because he was communicating it through what he did. And to me, that will always mean more than words ever could.

Despite a few issues this month with the She-Voldemort, a faulty lung, and information I'm still not 100% sure how to deal with...I know I love him. I know this is real, that I'm safe. That he cares about me and would never want me to be unhappy for any reason.

And that's a movie that may just overload the box office. I think I'll just call it "October." :)

Here's looking forward to November, too.

♪: "When We Die" by Bowling for Soup
♫: "Earthquake" by The Used
♪♫: "Somewhere In The Between" by Tomas Kalnoky
♫♫: "Never Gonna Be Alone" by Nickelback
♪♫♫: You know what? I could go on forever with songs that describe how I feel about him. We'll leave it at that :)