The Axiomatic Musings of a Teen whose Starmie will kick your ass.

I was Misty for Halloween, Ash was...okay seriously, you should be able to guess that xD. He didn't get that codename for nothing!

It was a lot of fun. We made an adorable couple, got some cute pictures, and spent literally 21 of the last 48 hours together, and it still wasn't enough, we were on AIM until after midnight last night :).
We talked about what our favorite part of October was. Literally, I couldn't choose. So much was magical this month, just as expected :). But I'll tell you one thing that really made my Halloween:

Ash: What?
Me: You...you love me. And you're with me right now, because you care about my happiness, even more than your own.
Ash: *gorgeous smile* Well, yeah. I thought we established this.

It seems silly. But that time last year, I was at home, playing board games with Devon and my Mom, because I didn't want to go trick-or-treating, but Sal did so he and his friends--my friends--ditched me and went off without me. And I felt so alone that night, so unloved.

There's a difference between saying you love someone, and showing it. It's the difference between the trailer and the actual movie. Like, yeah, the trailer is usually pretty cool, but if there's nothing decent to back it up, then who cares? The movie can exist without the trailer, but not vice-versa. And last year, how could I believe I was loved? He did what he wanted to do without regard to my happiness, or my feelings. He could say he loved me all he wanted, but when push came to shove, I still wasn't more important than what he wanted. Contrarily, I can think about Ash holding my hand at the football game, or racing me to the car so he could open my door for me every time, or bringing me roses...and he didn't have to say 'i love you' any of those times, because he was communicating it through what he did. And to me, that will always mean more than words ever could.

Despite a few issues this month with the She-Voldemort, a faulty lung, and information I'm still not 100% sure how to deal with...I know I love him. I know this is real, that I'm safe. That he cares about me and would never want me to be unhappy for any reason.

And that's a movie that may just overload the box office. I think I'll just call it "October." :)

Here's looking forward to November, too.

♪: "When We Die" by Bowling for Soup
♫: "Earthquake" by The Used
♪♫: "Somewhere In The Between" by Tomas Kalnoky
♫♫: "Never Gonna Be Alone" by Nickelback
♪♫♫: You know what? I could go on forever with songs that describe how I feel about him. We'll leave it at that :)