The Axiomatic Musings of a Teen who doesn't know everything.

I never said I did. I mean, every teen would like to think they know everything, but we don't.
Not to say we're stupid. We still know more than adults would like to give us credit for.

Ash and I are official, by the way, as of last Wednesday. :).
I had an amazing night last night. Ash is just one of those people I can spend hours and hours with and it's still not enough time. We went for a walk around the woods in the back of my house, then my other friends came over for a game of Manhunt, and it was just a really fantastic evening. I couldn't have imagined better if I tried.

And now I'm re-evaulating my qualifications for "love". Because see, when I'm Ash, it's this amazing feeling...where all I want is him, all I can think is him, and all I want to do is see him smile. And that feeling...the only word for it is love. But we've only been dating for like, 5 days, so obviously it's not the real, deep kind of love that I felt for Sal when I was writing my old qualifications. If you don't remember, they were as follows:
-Do you trust them absolutely and completely with anything? Like would you put your life in their hands without a second thought?
-Do you care about them infinitely? As in, do you put their well-being and happiness before your own?
-Would you die for them?
Now before I had said, 'it's love when you can answer 'yes' to all three of those questions'. But I can't quite answer 'yes' to all of those, but I still feel in love. So instead of having to fufill all of those at once, I'm considering them levels.
So this first lovey-dovey cloud-9 deeper-than-crush is level 1. I can very easily promise that I trust Ash completely with my life. It's amazing how honest and open we are with each other. Then, somewhere along the line, I'll be able to surrender and confidently say that his well-being and happiness is infinitely more important than my own. Then, when the feeling is a real, true, deep emotion...when I get to the point where I have a physical need for Ash, where I wouldn't ever want to live without him, where I would die for him...that's level 3, and that's the truest, deepest kind of love. But it doesn't just happen. The other stuff has to come first, and it takes time.

But, for now, I'm completely happy in admitting that I may just be falling in love with Ash. :)

And it feels spectacular.


♪: "Pretend" by Scott Porter