The Axiomatic Musings of a Teen who is coping.

That's all any of us can really do, isn't it? There's just a lot going on right now that I'm currently learning to cope with. I'll write it all out and see if that helps.

Situation: Ash
Not so much Ash, as Ash's mother. She's kind of crazy. I mean, she's always been nice to me, but for some twisted reason, she absolutely adores tormenting Ash. She tells him frequently that she wishes he wasn't her son, that he's a failure, that she hates him. She kicks him out sometimes so he stays at a hotel with his dad. And somehow, he deals with it without losing his mind all together. But I'm not quite as good at it. Last Friday, she flipped on him for no reason because he asked what time his friends could come over after she agreed they'd talk about it when she got home from work. Basically it ended as him being grounded for 2 months, so I haven't seen him since Valentine's Day, when she only let him come over for a few hours while she went grocery shopping. (Better than nothing though, at least). It's been horribly boring and horribly painful. I miss him so, so much. And I just don't know exactly how I'm supposed to deal with this. She'll say he can make plans, then change her mind at the last moment because she finds it funny. Which is kind of inconvenient when my mom and I are on our way to his house. She also likes yelling at him a lot. Even when I'm in the room. Yeeeahhh...But I'm not going to break up with him. If i ever do it won't be because of this. I just don't know how to, [word of the day!] *cope*. He can't run away then stay at my house for a while...that's illegal or something according to my mom xP. I just don't know what I can do to help. I hate seeing him treated like this. And dammit I'm pissed that she ruined my winter break! It just kills me to see Tawny's statuses always like, 'with Jim <3' and i'm sitting there alone. I miss him like crazy and I absolutely despise this situation.
How I Cope:
I cry a lot. That helps me get it out, at least. And I wear his hoodie around the house. Thank goodness for Skype so I can at least see his face, and we IM and talk on the phone. I still miss his hugs, though. :(

Situation: Rayne and Sal
I wish I could say I was over it. I'm not. I went to a party last night (Dana's 17th birthday!) and they were both there. It's not so much that they're all over each other and I can't take it. They're actually a really awkward couple to watch xD. Devon and I have a really funny metaphor for it but I won't say it here in case either of them read this ;). It's the fact that I really, really miss Sal's mom. She. Is. AWESOME. She's the kind of mom who would make cookies for us and include me in family game nights, she even had me over for Christmas Eve dinner. Hell, I liked her more than my own mom! And so seeing them together, I know what it's like to be in her shoes and have that kind of second mom who's always kind and polite and treats you like family...and I miss that. When I'm dealing with all this stress from Ash's mom, I really miss that. THAT IS NOT TO SAY I MISS SAL. At all. I actually see him doing the same bad-boyfriendy things to Rayne that he did to me, trying to make her not swear, etc, and I laugh because Ash is so much better than that. I just miss the convenience of the relationship, how it all worked out really well. Can't have it both ways, I guess. I'd still rather have the better boyfriend even if he does come with a crazy mom. And stuff is still awkwardish with Rayne. It doesn't really matter because she hangs out more with her friends from Archery anyway, but even still. I just feel like a total outer on the group now, by my own design, so I don't mind, I just don't like it either. I'm okay with Sal at least, it's actually easier for us to hang out as friends. I don't really know how to explain that, but it's the case. Either way, It still pains me to see them together.
How I Cope:
How CAN I cope with that kind of jealousy? I can't change Ash's mom. At least I know that I got the better deal boyfriend-wise. I can't bring myself to be besties with Rayne. So I just have to suck it up, really.

Situation: Formspring.me
I actually really enjoy this website. People ask me legit advice questions or tell me I'm nice, it's quite lovely. But at the same time, there are still jackasses. I don't even bother answering their questions anymore, I just delete them. They still pop up on my friends' pages too, though, so i gotta keep an eye out so I can troll them right back. My mom has a habit of pulling the plug on my wifi router randomly though so I feel bad if I can't get to it until the next day xP. And it just bothers me that everyone can't be nice.
How I Cope:
Delete the bad questions and stick up for my friends as best I can. It's not too hard.

Okay, writing everything out plainly did help. I don't think it counts as an Axiomatic Musing so much as a journal, but still. I still go by the premise that if someone else has a similar situation, at least you know you aren't alone. Also I'd like to welcome any new readers that I gained since posting the URL on formspring :).

♪: "Check Yes Juliet" by We The Kings
♫: "The Middle" by Jimmy Eat World
♪♫: "If and When We Rise Again" by Streetlight Manifesto
♫♫: "Vanilla Twilight" by Owl City (I'm trying to learn this on piano. It's freakin hard! I mean were 5 sharps REALLY necessary? xP)