The Axiomatic Musings of a Teen who is content.

This is a good thing. This is a good thing.

I'd just like to update y'all on the She-Voldemort situation. For one, her new codename is Nina. Related to the name Eponine, for anyone curious. Whaaa? We're treating her like a real person now? Why yes, voice I imagine my followers talk with, we are. Except I'm going to stop doing this in question/answer format though because the last post i did that in someone clicked the "???" box xD. BUT ANYWAY.

Nina talked to Ash last night, apparently explaining her reasoning behind everything she's ever done to hurt Ash or myself (and there was a lot). And I guess because he knew this nice side of her before she did any of that, he's forgiven her. Which...I think I can understand. I've only ever known her bad side so I can't feel the same, and I still think he's far too nice of a guy, but I can see where he's coming from. The thing was, she then gave him an ultimatum. Because she still has feelings for him, she said that she couldn't be friends with him unless I wasn't in the picture. And, thankfully, he picked me. So she is apparently going to take a step back (like she's said about 4 times before) and leave us alone. (And fyi, even though she has said that many times before, Ash assures me she means it this time. Hopefully he's right.)

The thing that bothers me is that I know exactly where she's coming from and how she feels...because that's exactly how I got Sal the first time. Have I told you guys this story? If not, I'll summarize it kinda quickly...
I liked Sal starting in the fall of 2007. Sal, however, asked out another girl (Nina's little sister, ironically) at that time. Obviously I was sad. I continued to be friends with Sal, though, and befriended his girlfriend as well to try and keep things going smoothly, i didn't want to start drama. I NEVER tried to break them up or even drive them apart though, especially not by lying or making stuff up or anything like that. Even back then I knew that's never an okay thing to do xP. I actually started dating Devon around then and we were really happy together. Then eventually Sal's girlfriend broke up with him, and a few weeks later, Devon and I broke up. THEN that was when I went to Sal one day and said, "hey, can i tell you a story?" and told him everything about how I had liked him so many before. He admitted he had liked me too once he became single again, and a few days after that he asked me out officially.
So Nina, it seemed, was trying to do the same thing with Ash...except it didn't work.

Which, honestly, has got to hurt. If that had been the case with me and Sal instead of what happened, I would have been even more heartbroken. So obviously she's hurt, that's why she doesn't want to be friends with Ash while he's still with me, that's just insult to injury. Which means she'll leave us alone, hopefully for good now, and that is a good thing.

But no matter what her intentions were originally, I am glad she talked to Ash at least. She explained things he never had answers to before which will hopefully give him some closure so he won't be wondering. Especially since she's going off to college in the fall. Hopefully she'll meet some new guy that she likes even more than Ash so he doesn't have to worry about hurting her, and then they'll both be happy. Because that's really all I want, that's what would be best for everyone. If she isn't going to continue trying to sabotage my relationship with Ash, and she's just going to be a big girl and move on, I really have absolutely no reason to hate her at all. I'll probably never have reason to forgive her for what she's done, unlike Ash, but as long as nothing else bad happens I figure she'll just fade into a neutral memory and all will be fine. (That IS just the thing though: as long as nothing else bad happens. I'll still be wary.)

I guess the point is that I can be very happy now, because I do know how much Ash loves me. I know that even when given the perfect opportunity with another girl who is guaranteed to like him, he still wouldn't just pick up and leave me. That's really reassuring, to know he feels that way :).

So, that's the final chapter with Nina. It would be better for everyone if she goes to college and finds a perfectly nice guy to fall in love and be happy with, so I really truly hope that's what happens. And until then, hopefully she really will back off Ash and I and let us both be happy without putting any more guilt on him. Because goodness knows I love him more than anything else in the world and I just want him to be happy, and if he chose me to be the one in charge of his happiness, then I won't let him down :).

Oh, and yes, that means the luau is cancelled. Sowwies ;).


♪: "One of Those Girls" by Avril Lavigne

P.s. Dear WhiteMuffin: Remember the time we talked on NetBattle when we didn't know each other? And got along? We really could have been friends. Remember that next time you consider hating me, please, and I will promise to as well.