The Axiomatic Musings of a Teen who wishes she was Italian sometimes.

Because Italian families freaking ROCK! :D.

See, I'm part of the 5% of my town that is NOT Italian. I'm Polish, British, Australian, French Canadian, Native American if you go back far enough...everything but.
Polish families are kinda cool. But when I think Polish, I think lard and onions. Because those are basically the 2 main ingredients in any Polish food. I hate onions. Family reunion food isn't that good to me xD. I do love my family though, even if we aren't particularly close. I have some pretty flippin' awesome cousins (one is going to Syracuse this fall!) and I love getting gardening advice from my grandparents who grow pineapples in their kitchen window xD. We just aren't like, really close. We see each other for holidays and that's kinda it.

But strangely enough, I don't know if I ever felt as much a part of a family as when I got to hang out with Sal's family. I've said this before; I don't miss Sal as a boyfriend at all (although I'm happy we're getting to be friends again :)) but I really do miss his fam. I was talking to Ash earlier, because he's going over Sal's house with like, Fred and Keith and that crew for a guy's day of video game fun tomorrow. I wasn't invited, but I'm super happy Ash was :). And I was saying how he'll have fun, that Sal's mom is so sweet, and that I want him to say hi to their guinea pig Mac for me...and I realized how much I miss being able to be there and say hi to Mac and feed him hay myself. It took me right back down memory lane and I realized I also miss being ignored by Sal's youngest brother, and I miss making fun of his second-youngest brother walking like a velociraptor, and I miss playing WiiFit with all of them. I was part of their family for over a year of my life in total, and they always made me feel like I was. Even after our first break up, when we got back together there was no sense of awkwardness or bitterness at all, I was just absorbed right back into the clan like before. That's where I think the Italian thing came in and was awesome. They were always welcoming no matter what, they invited me to family parties (even Christmas Eve dinner!) and always had tons of food.
The thing is, like all things, i didn't appreciate it until it was gone. I always wanted to hang out with just Sal, not Sal AND his brothers. But now it's pretty much the opposite xD. They were my other family for a while, whether I appreciated it then or not, and I guess when I think about it I realize that I do miss them. I really hope now that Sal and I are starting to be good friends again that I can keep some sort of bond with them, at least.

The thing is now, even if I DID get invited back for a pool day or whatever, I don't know how it would be like now. Sal's still with Rayne (still not a fan.) and idk if that would mean more awkwardness than before. Maybe it wouldn't be the same as I remember at all. Not a whole lot ever stays the same forever, I guess. I'd hope that I was still welcome there. If I wasn't I don't know how I'd feel. But there's no real way for me to know at the moment, so all I can really do is look back fondly on those memories of being part of that awesome Italian family :).

Now of course I'm happier to be with Ash. He's a much better boyfriend personally. And of course I adore his little sister too. So I think I'll make an effort this time around to become more a part of his family, too. They're mostly Italian too, after all :).
These were just some important memories I thought of today that I learned from (and I haven't blogged in a while...) so I wanted to share it with you guys. So I guess if you have an older or younger sibling with a boyfriend or girlfriend, and you're usually fairly neutral...try being nice. It'll mean the world to them, really, to feel included. Family is apparently a huge thing that I never really had as much experience growing up with as other people. So if you're like me, good luck fitting in with other people's families :D. And if you aren't like me, go hug your sibling or something! xD.

That's really it. Stuff has been going amazingly with Ash, we hung out a lot this week. He's truly an amazing guy and awesome boyfriend and I could never ask for better. He's the world to me :). <3.
And the Bright Lights performances are next weekend! Eek! :D

♪: "Someone to Fall Back On" by Aly Michalka, from Bandslam
♫: "Dragon Roost Island Redux" by Zelda Reorchestrated :D. Been stuck in my head all day, SO good.