As a general rule, I hold grudges. Deeply. I can still recall things that my mom didn't buy me when I was 6 that I resent her for. Even though Rayne and I are pretty friendly now I'll still never forget her and Sal. It's just that I can forgive, but I fear that if I ever forget (the way Ash does) then I'll get screwed over the same way twice. And I don't want to let that happen so this is how I am.
BUT I also discovered I have absolutely no patience for long-lasting drama. Like Nina over the summer, it gets to a point where I just throw my hands up and say whatever because I'm bored. Not tired of, or over, the situation, I just get genuinely bored of being upset over the same thing for long periods of time. I wanna move on to something new. Does this mean I've forgiven anyone? Absolutely not. If you remind me about it two weeks later the anger will probably resurface. But there just comes a point where I get done. I don't want to talk about it or think about it or deal with it anymore. I don't care if deep down I'm still hurt or things aren't fully resolved, I just wanna pretend it never happened and move on.
It's just kinda weird.
OTHER NEWS. I love you readers, you guys are fantastic <3. I love knowing someone out there can relate to how I feel.
Also, I haven't gotten a tumblr yet so I can't reblog things. BUT I've been following a friend of mine's, codename Chamille, and I just love some of the stuff she posts. And this one in particular made me laugh out loud for like 5 minutes straight because I LOVE Belle and this is all true. So I'm sharing it with y'all too :).
Ooh and one last thing, anyone know where I could find/how I could make a decent Cortana Halloween costume? ;)
♪: "Thank Goodness" from Wicked
♫: "Supergirl" by Hilary Duff
6 musings in reply:
See, I'm the exact opposite. I have a little box in my brain that I throw all the unpleasant things into and lock them away so I just don't have to think about them anymore. I don't know how I do it, really, I just do.
Also, I love Beauty and the Beast. It's one of my favorite fairy tales, especially the original version. Have you ever read it? If not, you definitely should. It's really beautiful.
hi alice! that's a codename you gave yourself, right, and not your real name? cuz i don't believe i have anyone codenamed alice on here at the moment...but anyway!
that's actually what i meant, i can do that too. i just shove it in a box and refuse to acknowledge it. but if something reminds me of it its like the box just explodes xP. if that doesn't happen to you though, that's good :).
and ME TOO! that, hercules, and pocahontas are some of my fave disney movies :). i definitely have read the original at some point but its been a while. i read 'beast' by donna jo napoli at one point too which was a different kinda strange retelling too. i have all the original fairy tales in an anthology on my bookshelf just sitting there, maybe i'll reread it now that you mentioned it :).
Haha yep it's my own codename I guess, it's what I go by on the internet in general really ;) (Probably not too hard for you to figure out who I am though, check out my dA page, you follow me there...)
I think that Peter Pan is probably one of my favorite Disney movies. And Alice in Wonderland, of course c: I've seen that book before but I never read it.
You should check out "The Rose and the Beast" by Francesca Lia Block. It's a collection of short stories that are all retellings of fairy tales. She's my favorite author, she writes so beautifully. Her Beauty and the Beast is really awesome.
well coolbeans, i believe i have an idea then :).
and that sounds cool, i'll definitely check that out when i finish the scarlet letter :P
The "forget" part in "forgive and forget" doesn't actually mean forget about it so it can happen again XDDD it means something more like dismiss it because it'll cause more problems tearing up your head than the problem is worth :D
eh, for some people [namely ash] it does mean that :P. idk, i'm just so much meaner than that. its the whole 'fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me.' i very rarely allow myself to be fooled twice.
and its NOT tearing up my head, i'm completely ignoring the fact the entire situation happened, remember? :P
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